A woman's walk through marriage, parenthood, servanthood and the family of God.
Tuesday, September 30, 2003
Today's excitement? Getting the oil changed in the car.
Today's best find? Four novels at the Salvation Army store. In mint condition. Three out of four are first editions. I collect first editions.
Today's dilemma? Deciding whether or not to write up one cute little boy. He isn't bad. He just can't sit down for more than two seconds. I've changed his seat. Doesn't help. I tell him ten times a day to sit down. Doesn't help. I've called his parents. They had him call me and apologize and promise he'd obey bus rules. Didn't help. He's smacked his face off the back of the seat in front of him already. Didn't help. I can tell the situation bothers him. He was nearly in tears this morning, but HE CAN'T SIT DOWN! I don't want him to get hurt. And I don't want to get in trouble if he does get hurt.
Today's dream? Making plans to go here for a weekend with friends for our anniversary in November.
Today's final hours? Dinner out with the family. TV. Reading. Bed.
posted by Stacy at 5:47 PM
Monday, September 29, 2003
Who Is Leaving?
Darren over at Livingroom found these stats and more:
· They were not leaving 'mainline' churches in decline. They were leaving growing evangelical, pentecostal, and charismatic churches.
· They were not leaving during 'adolescence'. They were leaving as adults, predominantly between thirty and forty-five years of age.
· They were not leaving after being involved for a short time. They were leaving after an average of 15.8 years of involvement.
· They were not leaving from the fringe, but from the very core. 94% were church leaders. 40% in full-time Christian study or work or both.
posted by Stacy at 12:00 PM
Trying to hang in there and remain positive and hopeful where our church is concerned.....but it's tough. Pastor had the associate read his resignation at the close of both services yesterday. He did not give the date of his resignation as October 1, but as December 31. He says he plans to help the church heal. My fear is that his sticking around so long will only cause further hurt and confusion and more polarization of opinions. He has invited everyone to a time of fellowship next Sunday evening at the church when he "wants the congregation to talk to him and ask questions." The leaders are concerned where he may be going with this. On top of all the rest, Matt chose not to go to youth group last night because of the cold shoulder he is receiving from a lot of the other teens. I tearfully informed the associate that he needed to sit down and talk with them about what is going on. If people want to hate Tim and I, okay, I understand that they need a face to direct their anger at, but my kids don't have anything to do with it. We have let them know what is going on, but have encouraged them to form their own opinions and to treat everyone with love and respect, to understand that emotions are running high, but that none of it should be personal. Unfortunately, it appears that not all church leaders instruct their children this way.....they don't always act this way, themselves.
posted by Stacy at 11:34 AM
Things My Mother Taught Me
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished
2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle
of next week!"
4 . My mother taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
'If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going
to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an
7. My mother taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"
10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
'You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't
13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who
don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it when you get home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, They are going to freeze that
19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My mother taught me HUMOR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come
running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."
25. And my favorite: my mother taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
posted by Stacy at 5:49 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2003
Stupid.com is the place to find "pointless, useless, stupid and funny stuff." The opening page features such clever gems as; the 2004 Dog Poop Calendar, meat scented air fresheners, and camo golf balls.
posted by Stacy at 10:44 PM
An on again, off again rainy day for us, but Tim didn't work and the kids had no plans so I got to have the family together and we spent the morning and part of the afternoon doing things that go hand-in-hand with my favorite season. We checked out the flea market at the church, taking a load of things down to sell and searching for bargains of our own (Megan found a beautiful suede jacket that looks like new for $3). We bought bales of straw at a local farm supply store for the chickens and for the fall display I will put in the front yard. A stop at a nursery netted two huge mums...yellow with red centers, unusual and very striking. On to Railroad Days in Derry to see the crafts, listen to the bands and of course, nibble the festival foods. One last stop at a farm stand resulted in the purchase of some pumpkins and a royal purple mum that will join the front display as well as a jar of spicy relish and one of strawberry/rhubarb jam which will be yummy on warm biscuits with dinner tonight.
Pure heaven for a fall junkie like me.
posted by Stacy at 5:13 PM
Friday, September 26, 2003
Bryan has an incredible post on beating discouragement.
posted by Stacy at 5:20 PM
I woke up early today, excited over all I get to do before the clock strikes midnight. I have responsibilities to fulfill today. I am important. My job is to choose what kind of day I am going to have.
Today I can complain because the weather is rainy or I can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free.
Today I can feel sad that I don't have more money or I can be glad that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide me away from waste.
Today I can grumble about my health or I can rejoice that I am alive.
Today I can lament over all that my parents didn't give me when I was growing up or I can feel grateful that they allowed me to be born.
Today I can cry because roses have thorns or I can celebrate that thorns have roses.
Today I can mourn my lack of friends or I can excitedly embark upon a quest to discover new relationships.
Today I can whine because I have to go to work or I can shout for joy because I have a job to do.
Today I can complain because I have to go to school or eagerly open my mind and fill it with rich new tidbits of knowledge.
Today I can murmur dejectedly because I have to do housework or I can feel honored because I've been provided shelter for my mind and body.
Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped.
And here I am, the sculptor who gets to do the shaping.
What today will be like is up to me.
I get to choose what kind of day I will have!
Have a GREAT DAY . . . unless you have other plans.
Thanks to Mikey's Funnies at Youth Specialties.
posted by Stacy at 5:57 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2003
1. What are 3 songs from your "growing up" years that you hear on the radio now and have to crank it. Songs that really get you rockin'. Only the Good Die Young by Billy Joel, Sweet Home Alabama by Lynyrd Skynyrd and Walking on Sunshine by Katrina and the Waves.
2. What are 3 songs that bring back really great memories. Open Arms by Journey (the romantic song of my sr. year), Piano Man by Billy Joel (great sing-a-longs at my favorite frat' parties), and............uh, I can't think of another one right now.
3. What are 3 of your favorite bands/singers from your growing up years? The Eagles, Billy Joel and Lynyrd Skynyrd.
4. What are 3 of your favorite bands/singers now? Matchbox 20, Smashmouth, Newsboys/dcTalk
Bonus: What was the best concert you ever went to? Tell us about it. Ever?? How about one that was actually more than one....Creation Festival. O.C. Supertones opened for dcTalk. Great show! I also have to admit that I attended a Ted Nugent concert in college. I don't like his music and didn't then, but a friend had an extra ticket. He put on a very good stage show and my friend and I snuck down to the floor from our seats in the peanut gallery to be right in the thick of things. It would have been even better if some guy with the biggest container of beer ever hadn't climbed up on the folding chair I was already standing on and folded us both up in the chair and bathed us in beer.
posted by Stacy at 11:30 AM
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Overheard an interesting comment in a conversation I wasn't a part of today at work. Two women were talking about one of their daughters who just found out she is pregnant. The daughter is not married. The women discussed how they didn't feel it was important if a person engaged in premarital sex. Ok, not new thinking in our society so I wasn't exactly shocked. What did catch me off guard was the justification and that was....."God can't judge anybody for having sex because after all he had sex and he wasn't married." One woman went on to say that she'd actually thrown that at her pastor and he'd had no real answer for her. So, I've been thinking about it all afternoon. About how I would explain that God did NOT have sex with Mary in a way that made sense to them. I know how I'd talk about it with a fellow Christian, but I have to admit, if a person is without faith it most likely sounds like a lot of baloney.
So, here's a question. How would you explain it?
posted by Stacy at 5:32 PM
Just Say No To Drugs!
Ouch! This is a really, really good reason not to do drugs.
This link comes from a Pennsylvanian in Exile.
posted by Stacy at 5:16 PM
It's over.....or is it?
The church council voted last night by a narrow margin to ask for Pastor's "voluntary" resignation. He gave it to them last night, but does not have to leave until December 31. This to allow him time to decide what he plans to do and hopefully either find another church or a secular job.
I had expected to feel something different when this day came. Not celebration, but something like relief. I don't. Just a great sadness.
posted by Stacy at 12:00 PM
Monday, September 22, 2003
Notice the friendly ads at the top? Thank you, Google, for listening.
Attended a meeting after work this morning about the company's charity, which finds out from the school districts it services about families who won't have much of a Christmas or one at all, then goes out and purchases gifts, wraps them and makes sure they get to the families. I landed myself on the committee. I'm really excited about it and am looking forward to getting out there to solicit donations from other businesses. And the really cool part? It's all anonymous. We don't know who they are and they don't know who we are. I'm hoping to jump-start the fundraising as we'd like to start being able to help out throughout the year when there is a need.
Church was rough yesterday. Really rough. It's painfully obvious that things are not going to be resolved without dividing the church. I have stepped out of Sunday night youth activities for the time being. I don't want Pastor's children to miss out on time with their friends because they want to avoid me. The youth group is for them and their well-being is my main concern. Council is supposed to vote tonight, but Pastor's supporters may force it to a congregational meeting where it will open up into a major free-for-all and who knows where that will lead. I just pray both sides will exhibit grace and wisdom.
posted by Stacy at 11:48 AM
Saturday, September 20, 2003
I took the kids with me this morning to do some stock up shopping at Sam's Club in Monroeville. You gotta love that place. They have everything.....and they have it in giant, economy size! We came home with so much stuff I had to empty out half the kitchen cupboards and rearrange things to get it all put away. The first person who looks around and announces that "there's nothing to eat" is going to get popped.
posted by Stacy at 6:52 PM
Not terribly thrilled with the ads at the top of my site for psychics and a white witch. I emailed Google. Let's see if they do anything about it.
posted by Stacy at 6:49 PM
Friday, September 19, 2003
1. Who is your favorite singer/musician? Why? Ok, if you haven't heard this confession before you are going to think I am soooo weird. I absolutely loved the late John Denver's music. Why? Well, he had a great voice and also his music was very personal to me growing up, it reflected my life experiences.
2. What one singer/musician can you not stand? Why? Only one?? Brittany Spears, I guess. As much as I don't like Madonna, Brittany is just a cheap imitation and that makes her doubly annoying.
3. If your favorite singer wasn't in the music business, do you think you would still like him/her as a person? No. I read John Denver's biography a while back. He was into New Age practices, drugs, cheated on his wife...... Not my kind of guy at all.
4. Have you been to any concerts? If yes, who put on the best show? I've been to quite a few. I'd have to say the ones that stand out are dcTalk, Newsboys, Alabama and Frank Sinatra.
5. What are your thoughts on downloading free music online vs. purchasing albums? Do you feel the RIAA is right in its pursuit to stop people from dowloading free music? I don't know. I personally don't download music. I'm not sure it's a whole lot different from when I was a kid and we'd tape songs off the radio.....other than way better quality. I don't know if it hurts the artists that much. I saw a breakdown the other day of who gets the money from the sale of a cd and the artist gets a very tiny portion compared to everyone else. But, like it or not, if it's illegal then it's a no-no.
posted by Stacy at 10:03 PM
In a bit of a funk and feeling sorry for myself this evening. All the stress of what's been going on, combined with too little sleep this week has me feeling wiped out and a killer headache hit me this afternoon. I could barely see straight to get home from work. Three ibuprofen, two Tylenol, one hot shower, one nap and one order of Chinese chicken with broccoli and I'm feeling somewhat human. I'm not begging to be put out of my misery anyway. I'd hoped for a family night with all of us together relaxing and regrouping, but Tim worked late then spent the evening in his workshop building a form he needs for tomorrow (he's working half a day) and the kids went to Holly's for the evening. I threw a bit of a fit and told them all they would be home tomorrow night. Maybe I can blame the headache for my crankiness?
posted by Stacy at 9:52 PM
Thursday, September 18, 2003
Sad today. Our pastor's children didn't attend bible study last night. I expected it, but still sad for the loss of those relationships.
posted by Stacy at 5:58 PM
Waiting for the hurricane...
Not much here but dark skies and a few sprinkles. It's coming. It won't be a hurricane when it arrives, but tropical storm-force winds are predicted and anywhere from 3-6 inches of rain. A lot of school districts are already canceling classes for tomorrow. Not Derry, so as it stands I'll be driving. If it gets questionable I hope they are smart enough to cancel. Strong wind can really play havoc on a bus.
posted by Stacy at 5:53 PM
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Watched Montel Williams' talk show this morning.....which for the record, I normally never do. He had one guest. Sylvia Browne, psychic and best selling author. So many people asking about missing loved ones, deceased loved ones and the future.
I will give the woman credit that she is good at what she does. Never missed a beat. Too bad it is all deception from the greatest deceiver of all time. If all those people hung their hopes on God instead...... The desperation was unbelievable as were Ms. Browne's answers but she is so smooth as she tells a man his deceased aunt is right behind him or gives directions to find the body of a missing woman.
The really scary part? A commercial came on and announced that Ms. Browne will be in Pittsburgh soon to lead a seminar. She isn't just going to answer your questions, she's going to teach you how to contact your deceased loved ones yourself.
posted by Stacy at 11:20 AM
Well, the computer is cooperating this morning, so I thought I'd blog while the blogging is good.
Two new elementary kids on my bus this morning. That brings the total to 56. It's very crowded and noisy, but by manufacturer standards it's a long way from full. With 24 seats, 72 is considered capacity. Discipline has long been neglected on this run so I've been struggling with getting things under control. It's slow, but I am starting to see some progress. Last night I called a few parents and talked to them about safety. Big difference on the bus this morning.
Monday's church council meeting was long (4 hours) and heated and attended by about half the church. I wanted to go, but Tim was afraid he would take a personal beating and didn't want me there to be caught in it. No official vote was taken. In deference to those who just found out there is a problem (I don't know where they have been), council is waiting a week to give them time to mull it over and pray. Unofficially, all but a few say that even if they don't see a problem with Pastor, they know his ministry here is finished. Some are threatening to leave if Pastor goes and that is sad, but anytime there is a change in Pastors (even under good circumstances) there will be some who leave and also some new. We're looking at people leaving whether the man stays or goes so we have to consider the future of the church as a whole, not the individuals so much.
posted by Stacy at 9:49 AM
Monday, September 15, 2003
Criminnies! It took forever to get on line today. If I disappear in the next couple of days don't give up on me. My computer probably crashed. It seems to be gearing up to it. Things have been going steadily south since I installed AOL 8.0.
posted by Stacy at 12:00 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Calmer spirits seem to be prevailing in the church situation for the moment and Pastor has been very nice to Tim this weekend. However, lines are clearly being drawn between the two opposing opinions. Some whom I was sure would fight very hard to keep Pastor have stated they feel it is time for him to step down in order to protect the church whether they feel he is in the wrong or not. They say simply that they realize his ministry is finished here, that it can't continue effectively after this even if the vote were to go his way. Others that I believed would want him to step down have come out in support of him. Church was "uncomfortable" for me this morning. Some let me know they support Tim as he steps forward as the leader tomorrow night. From others I received the cold shoulder. I am walking on egg shells not knowing who is angry with us, who isn't and who I can speak to or not.
Pastor shared his testimony and journey to ministry rather than giving a sermon this morning. I admit it was good and I enjoyed it. He was at his very best. I question the motives behind his timing, though. It was definitely geared to tug the sentiments at this time, speaking to the theme of God calling the available not the able. He asked that we remember God called a simple man who was just doing his best to follow God's calling. His supporters rallied immediately amidst a flurry of "Hallelujah, brother's" and I witnessed many in tears.
We did learn today that the regional director has advised Pastor not to attend tomorrow night's meeting. I know it will be hard for him to sit at home waiting, but I believe with all my heart it is better for everyone. Much less chance of things being said that will be regretted later and hopefully, council will feel free to vote their true feelings without him present.
It is hard. This thing must be done to save the church, but there is no way to do it without hurting Pastor, his family and his supporters. I hope they can see that it is also tearing we, on the "otherside" apart as well. We wish no one ill will. We just can't sit and watch the church die any longer. As elected and appointed leaders, we have a duty to care for our pastor, but not at the expense of the congregation. No matter what happens, there is going to be great pain all the way around and we will need to go through an extended period of healing.
posted by Stacy at 6:10 PM
The Rock Show took place this weekend. Very cool.
Friday night's concert featured Apologetix, Bleach, Skillet and a host of local bands. Saturday's line up included a lot more local groups and The Waiting and Smalltown Poets. I got to hang out with the guys from Smalltown Poets for a while. Really nice guys and down to earth. Lots of kids made first-time commitments and there were several rededications, which more than makes any disappointments and aggravations connected to the event insignificant.
Matthew was in his glory. He wants to go college to study lighting, sound and special effects and he got to help out a lot with all the technical stuff and he ran all the lighting programs. All of the bands (national and local) let him know he did a great job. He is floating!
posted by Stacy at 5:56 PM
Friday, September 12, 2003
1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed? On my first (yes, I said first) birth certificate my last name was the same as my mom's. She got married when I was three and my dad adopted me so a new certificate was issued with that name. Now it's different because I'm married.
2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be? I don't have any desire to change my name these days. As a kid I went through a phase of wanting to be Marcia (as in Brady) and later it was Heather.
3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?) My mom named me. She liked the name Anastasia, but thought it was a bit much so thought Stacy was the Americanized version.
4. Are there any names you really hate or love? What are they and why? I really wanted to name our kids Luke Alden and Rachel Grace, but Tim didn't care for them. Luke and Rachel because I like biblical names, Grace because it's pretty and Alden because I can trace my family back to John and Priscilla Alden of Mayflower/Pilgrim fame (it's actually a common middle name in the family). I compromised on Matthew Allen, which is biblical and the Allen was for my grandfather, who was given my great-grandmother's maiden name. Megan Nicole has no special meanings. We just liked it.
5. Is the analysis of your name at kabalarians.com accurate? How or how isn't it?
Your first name of Stacy has given you energy, drive, and ambition, but also an almost excessively strong-willed and independent nature. While you are creative, inventive, and ingenious in practical matters, and always ready to initiate and promote new undertakings, you often experience difficulty in bringing your undertakings to a successful conclusion because of your own changing interests or changing circumstances. You become intensely involved with everything you plan to do, but the stress arising from frustrating obstacles or misunderstandings with others could prompt you to be intolerant and sarcastic in your expression, with breakdowns in congenial relations with family and friends a possible end result.
Some of it is pretty accurate. Particularly the part about having a hard time bringing things to a successful conclusion because of changing interests. Hmmm....and I'd just chalked it up to undiagnosed Attention Deficit Disorder.
posted by Stacy at 12:14 PM
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Waiting...for a delivery of firewood. We are on the ball this year and are actually stocking up early. You know, like, before we are desperate and prices are through the roof. Imagine that.
The guy is late. About an hour late at this point.
I'm killing time.
The house is clean and chores are done because of my having the Kingdom Treasures party last night.
Oh, if you're wondering about the situation at church.......
It's not good.
More and more it appears lines are being drawn. Pastor still thinks it is only a small handful of people "causing trouble" and blames Tim as the instigator that keeps it all stirred up. Venom and threats are the norm coming from his direction.
Tim, meanwhile, feels as if everyone is using him to accomplish their means and is willing to "sacrifice" him as the fall guy. He feels this way because only a couple of people are speaking directly to him as an elder. Most of it comes second-hand. He knows it to be true, but would feel much better if people dealt directly with him.
This is without a doubt the worst experience I've had to go through. It is more difficult than watching my dad die of cancer.
I talked with a man a work today about some of this and he reminded me that the crappy stuff is necessary for spiritual growth and that to have peace, I need to get to the point where I can thank God for this and know that it is growing us. I know it in my head, but my heart isn't quite there yet.
Still no wood.
Time to find something else to do.
posted by Stacy at 10:47 AM
Monday, September 08, 2003
I'm working tonight to prepare for Wednesday's kick-off of the servant evangelism group with the youth. Good stuff I'm reading. I pray the kids will take it to heart...and then take it to the streets.
Lots of you have asked me about servant evangelism. Look here to find out everything you want to know.
posted by Stacy at 8:05 PM
This might be interesting:
Online Training for Online Evangelism
Ever thought of the Internet as a tool for sharing your faith? This comprehensive training site may change your mind.
posted by Stacy at 7:59 PM
First of all, thank you all so very much for the prayers for Tim, our church, our pastor and everything else you may have been praying for. When Tim didn't attend church yesterday, a lot of people noticed and he received several phone calls and a few visits. These encouraged him so much! I know the situation still bothers him, but he is at least talking and agreed to attend tonight's council meeting.
I am trying to keep myself busy this evening as Tim will be introducing what is happening to the council and bringing them up to speed. From that point, we don't even have a guess what is going to happen.....other than the proverbial you-know-what is going to hit the proverbial fan.
Praying for calm heads to prevail and a spirit of grace to cover all.
posted by Stacy at 7:53 PM
Questions from Beth:
1. You have mentioned before that you have worked with the youth, how long have you felt a call on your life to do that, and under normal circumstances, does Tim work along side with you?
It's been six years since I first felt God nudging me to get involved with the youth....not something I would have originally chosen to do on my own, but it's been a wild ride and I hope I have blessed the kids who have passed through my care half as much as they have blessed me. Tim didn't work with me in the beginning at all, but when our youth pastor at the time left, Tim stepped in with me until we hired a new associate two years later. It was a stretch for him, but he did great and the kids loved him. He still jumps in when I need him.....and sometimes just for fun.
2. What is one thing you love the most about being a mom? Just being with Matt and Megan, sharing life. I am constantly amazed by the persons they are becoming. I enjoy showing them new things and learning from them.
3. What is one of the challanges you face with being a mom? I guess the biggest one right now is dealing with Matthew and the teenage years. This past year has been pretty rocky. Matt is trying to assert independence, but has been pushing a little too far at times and struggling with some not so great decisions. I hate disciplining him and then getting the "you-ruined-my-life" treatment. My biggest challenge with Megan is letting her grow up. She's my baby and she is pretty small physically, so sometimes I have a hard time letting her be a middle schooler.
4. What is your favorite food? Chinese greenbeans and chicken.
5. What is your favorite movie? I'm a sucker for chick flicks. Hope Floats, While You Were Sleeping, Dirty Dancing, and Miss Congeniality are all favorites. I also like comedies...really silly comedies....and anything with the late John Candy is a must see.
posted by Stacy at 5:36 AM
Sunday, September 07, 2003
The body is not stiff and sore this morning like I'd expected after yesterday's marathon of yard work.
This is a good thing, because....
I'm leading the youth in an all afternoon Survivor/Fear Factor/Fall Kick-off type thingy today.
Wet. Gross. Competitive.
posted by Stacy at 7:43 AM
My heart is confident in you, O God;
no wonder I can sing your praises!
Wake up, my soul!
Wake up, O harp and lyre!
I will waken the dawn with my song.
I will thank you, Lord, in front of all the people.
I will sing your praises among the nations.
For your unfailing love is higher than the heavens.
Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.
Be exalted, O God, above the highest heavens.
May your glory shine over all the earth.
posted by Stacy at 7:31 AM
Saturday, September 06, 2003
Went to see Dickie Roberts: Former Child Star last night. Don't be fooled by the trailers that play it up as a family film. It got a PG-13 rating for a reason. Mainly foul language and crude (not to mention sophomoric) sexual humor.
Still.....it was kinda funny, but probably only because I grew up in the late 70's and early 80's and I got all the inside jokes. It was amusing to see all the real former child stars on screen and watch them poke fun at themselves. It was also kind of a sad reminder of what happens to kids who become super stars at a young age.
The plot was okay and could have really been something if the nasty humor had been dropped and the themes investigated more deeply.
posted by Stacy at 1:08 PM
Friday, September 05, 2003
Just to let you know, I'm on more stable footing today. I've unresigned (or at least put it on hold) and seeing that Tim really is okay with it, I'm going to continue attending our church and taking care of my ministries at least until the dust settles and I see what's going to happen.
I'm actually feeling pretty peaceful.
Tim is beyond peaceful. It is as if the weight of the world is off him.
Thanks for the prayers.
God is good!
posted by Stacy at 1:07 PM
So you think you could do better than the doofus's that land on the reality shows? Here's your chance to prove it.
This from The Learning Channel's "Award-winning" reality show, Fake It:
• Looking for PASTOR/MINISTER/PREACHER for TLC REALITY SERIES!
• Looking ASAP for PASTOR/MINISTER/PREACHER for award-winning tv reality series, FAKING IT, airing on THE LEARNING CHANNEL (home of "Junkyard Wars", "Trading Spaces")
• MALE or FEMALE. Preferably single. Preferably age 21-35.
• Person selected will be FAKING IT in a new profession that producers choose.
• FAKER will be living with MENTOR for ONE MONTH.
• ***MUST BE AVAILABLE TO SHOOT OCTOBER 6 - OCTOBER 31***
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posted by Stacy at 1:03 PM
Thursday, September 04, 2003
I tried to turn in my resignations yesterday for my positions as regional bible quiz director and advisor to the regional youth ministry team. The reg. director refused to accept them.....for one month. At that time if I still feel the same, he will accept them.
I wanted out because of what's going on and what it's doing to my family. I want to focus on them right now. I also don't think I'm going to be a church member for much longer.
The reg. director said to "remain in place and see how things pan out." Tim read his response to me and had no comment. He still feels the same. It is going to take something major to change his mind. The relief he is feeling at having washed his hands of everything is very evident.
Tim was upset, for the record, that I sent a resignation in. He said he does not want his withdrawal to affect me and my ministries. Now, how in the world does he think it won't affect me???
I had nearly adjusted my thinking to accepting that I would be leaving the church......now I am thinking maybe I should give it the month. After all these years, what is one more month? If Pastor moves on then I will feel comfortable continuing there even if Tim never returns (unless of course he finds another church) and if Pastor doesn't, then I can leave when that becomes official.
Then again, I think to myself, "just leave and claim some of that relief Tim is feeling. You've been in the battle (for lack of a better term) for a long time. You're weary. You deserve some peace."
Yep. Still confused.
posted by Stacy at 10:57 AM
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
I probably won't post much for a couple of days. Then again, I may find that I post a lot.
Something happened yesterday with Tim (I'm not clear on what) that has him saying he is done with church......ours in particular, forever and any in general, for a while. He doesn't want to talk about it with me or anyone from church. He isn't all depressed and mopey. He actually seems happier than he has in ages due to the decision. I did get him to agree not to resign formally until a little time has passed, just in case he finds that he feels differently down the road. He says he doesn't care if I continue to attend, that it wouldn't bother him at all, but......he wouldn't want to hear about it. He says he doesn't want to cut off friendships, but if he won't speak of anything relating to the church, it will be difficult to maintain those.
Anyway, I have some thinking to do and some decisions of my own to make. The thought of leaving the church and the youth tears me up and leaves me feeling sick, but then again, being a part of our church has done that fairly often the last couple of years. I'm pretty sure it would be healthier for us to move on, I'm just having a hard, hard time letting go.
posted by Stacy at 5:34 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Questions for Rachel
1. What is the best thing about living in New Zealand?
2. What is one thing about you that would surprise people?
3. What is God saying to you (what lessons is He teaching) at this time in your life?
4. What are you reading?
5. You are in the process of leaving one church and becoming part of another. What are you struggling with? What is blessing you?
posted by Stacy at 1:05 PM
What's Your Spiritual Type?
Brought to you by the good folks at Method X.
You are a Sage, characterized by a thinking or head spirituality. You value responsibility, logic, and order. Maybe that's why you were voted "Most Dependable" by your high school classmates. Structure and organization are important to you. What would the world be like without you? Chaos, that's what! Your favorite words include should, ought, and be prepared. What makes you feel warm and fuzzy? Like Tevye from Fiddler on the Roof it's tradition! tradition! tradition!
Because you love words, written or spoken, you enjoy a good lecture, serious discussions, and theological reflection. Prayer for you usually is verbal. You thrive on activity and gatherings of people, such as study groups. Sages on retreat likely would fill every day with planned activities, leaving little time for silence or solitude.
We need Sages for your clear thinking and orderly ways. You pay attention to details that others overlook. Sages make contributions to education, publishing, and theology. You often are the ones who feel a duty to serve, give, care, and share with the rest of us.
On the other hand, sometimes you seem unfeeling, too intellectual, or dry. Can you say "dogmatic"? You may need to experience the freedom of breaking a rule or two every now and then. God's grace covers Sages too, you know!
Ok, I admit this hits pretty close to home. The only parts that don't sound like me at all involve structure, organization and tradition, tradition, tradition.
Thanks Rachel for the link.
posted by Stacy at 10:38 AM
Tim took the "baby" hamsters (all 6 of them) to work this morning. A guy at work has a wife that runs a daycare and she is willing to take them. Not a moment too soon. The little buggers are starting to procreate. Kinda gross, but they are also cannibals. No sign at all this morning of any of the babies born yesterday.
posted by Stacy at 5:05 AM
Monday, September 01, 2003
Explaination to follow.
1. You drive a bus and do work in your church…what is the best thing about these to jobs? Do they overlap at all? I'd have to say that the best part of both jobs is the opportunity to make a difference in the lives of children and teenagers, especially on the bus. I have some really rough kids and while I do have to discipline them, I try to temper it with love and grace....something I think they don't see much, if any, of. I guess that's one way the two overlap. Another way, though I haven't done it yet, I could drive a bus the church chartered.
2. You are encouraging the youth to do servant evangelism at your Church… Tell us about this concept… what started you on it? Do you feel a bigger affinity with the teens at your Church as opposed to any other age group (ie 5-10 age group)? I'm always trying to encourage the youth to "put legs on their faith" and servant evangelism is something I came upon while looking for answers to why the church I am at isn't growing. A lack of loving our neighbors jumps out at me. We do a lot of outreach events, but we are prone to preaching at folks and bombarding them with lists of all we offer rather than extending the hand of friendship or letting them know how important they are. The idea of servant evangelism, at least to me, is sharing the love of Christ through actions rather than words. I am going to be taking the youth out into the neighborhoods surrounding the church and we will be doing things like raking leaves, shoveling snow, giving out Halloween treats and coffee or hot chocolate on cold days and returning shopping carts or holding umbrellas over people on rainy days. No donations accepted. Our only explanation is that we want to share with them some of the love Christ has for them.
And yes, I feel more of an affinity toward the teens. They are at such a rough stage of life....no longer kids, not quite adults and trying to figure it all out, while often catching a bad and undeserved rap. They are intelligent, talented, funny and packed full of ideas and enthusiasm.
3. What started you blogging and what gives you the inspiration to keep going? A friend of mine pointed me toward Brian's blog and said he was starting his own. That was the first time I'd heard of blogging. As for what keeps me going...I've always kept journals. Something drives me to write. Add the ease of on-line journaling and the thrill of feedback from others and I'm hooked!
4. What is the most important thing that Marriage and having Children has taught you? Compromise, compromise, compromise......and patience, patience, patience. Really, thinking about someone else and putting their needs first even when you don't feel like it.
5. What would you like to accomplish in the coming years? Hmmm....this is a tough one. I'd like to continue raising my children to follow God and hope that when I let them try their wings, they will do just that. I'd like to get some more formal ministry training. I'd like to be used by God to spark an enthusiasm for loving our neighbors into fellowship. Basically, I want to live a life in which others see Christ.
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